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age of the fall

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yep. this one hurts.
kingof_kings
So breathing is a foreign task and thinking's just too much to ask tonight...

It's been a long time since I've felt like I do right now. Betrayed? Lost? Looking forward to mending this once-again shattered heart. Everyone's told me to not put my eggs into one basket, and yet I did it again, because I never learn.

I want to throw up.

Was I stupid for trusting her? Was I that fucking naive that I threw my heart away, and for some fucking reason had enough faith that it wouldn't return to me in a box shattered?

I know I'll get over it. It's just getting there that's the hard part. And tonight isn't looking that great.
1,890 hours. Was it all for nothing? Who knows. I wish I did.

I wish I didn't have to wait another 3 weeks to see my counselor.

Haha this might actually make me cry.. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. I suddenly got very cold..

I feel like I got played like a violin.. I want this to stop hurting already.

I almost think there's nothing left of me to give anymore. I just can't do it anymore.

Happy Birthday darling, we love you very, very, very, very, very much.. </3 It meant more to me than it ever did to you. I'm better than this.

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With every goodbye, you learn.

Yeah, but with this one, it's hard figuring out exactly the lesson to be learned. I'm mostly used to blaming myself, this time I've come out of it innocent, so it's a whole new ball game for me to try and conquer.

You'll determine the lesson over time.

Are you the person who did this to me?

I'm not even entirely clear on what you had done to you. So, no. I am not.

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